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I don't.

Good. I am glad you understand.

[ Wait for it... ]

I was needlessly harsh with your bird. There were more rational ways to go about it, but I panicked. I hope you can forgive me for that.

I noticed

[It's meant to come off playful, but in truth it's genuine. He had. Blue spoke without thinking. Yusuke said what he meant. It wasn't quite the same thing, but both led to a certain kind of honesty, he could recognize.]

[He may have understood it, with all the heroic impulses intrinsic to Red, but that didn't make it any easier to swallow. Especially not for someone he has begun to think of as a true 'friend'. With heroism came danger and with danger came fear, fear of losing, fear of being swept up into it, things he didn't think he was capable of.]

[He has already met the ultimate consequences of that once, in this place.]

[There's entirely too much shame and past failure and bad blood attached to the discussion of Pidgeot as anything near an explanation; it would have been hard enough, to someone of his own world. He simply can't.]

it's ok he's safe back home now anyway

[There's a pause, then he adds]

this place was hard on him

[Maybe not for the most obvious reasons, but those Blue will keep to himself.]

It's hard on all of us. I will not judge anyone for that.

But in my case, things are looking up. That means fewer secrets, I hope.

['Friends help one another'. That was what Red always said, right? Even if it terrified him.]

you can talk to me if you want to

[...What little and useless comfort he was, he thought. But it seemed important to offer.]

[ Yusuke doesn't need help he never needs help!! Everything is fine, but he recognizes that it's probably a big deal for Blue to even offer? ]

As I said, things are looking up. I believe that everything is going to be alright, but I appreciate that. I will extend the same invitation to you, if you need anything.

The latest clone nonsense was actually very enlightening.

I did meet one of yours, though. He propositioned me for sex.

what

WAIT YOU TOO???/

sorry I'm really really sorry I saw the pics on my account but I have no idea how it happened it wasn't me I hate this place!!!

Me too? He was persistent, wasn't he?

Really, it isn't anything to worry about. I know it wasn't you.

uh ask Akira actually on second thought don't ask Akira

I doubt he was very bothered by it, either.

[Oh thank Arceus that means Akira probably didn't tell him huh]

[WELP not about to change that]

right lol um what did he say out of curiosity

He asked me to take my clothes off and model for him. Or vise versa. It was mostly nonsense.

oh

[yeah that sounds like him]

just that kinda thing huh you dont seem very surprised about copies of people running around ??

It's happened once before. The last time, my clone tried to murder my friends instead of seduce them, so really, this wasn't so horrible.

[o h]

oh

[suddenly he doesn't want to talk about that anymore...]

hey, can I ask something? can your Goemon talk, like Arsene?

He does. Not excessively, like Arsene.

oh so that's how it is huh

[something about that amuses him...]

can I meet him? properly this time

If you would like to.

It's like I said before, it isn't anything like your pokemon. It's a part of me. Goemon does nothing without my intent, says nothing that I do not truly feel. We feel pain, and pleasure, and everything else together.

[ So he was only kind of lying!! ]

oh... so then you can't really talk to each other? I mean, as separate minds

[That's kind of lonely, he thinks; if he didn't have his team to talk to on the road, he thinks he would have gone mad already.]

Arsene seems a lot more [... ...] rowdy than Akira lol

The Persona is the true self. There are parts of Akira that he does not easily show. You saw it, with Arsene.

Therefore, no. We are not separate minds, he is me and I am him. We can communicate, but it is like talking to yourself. Sometimes, he forces me to confront things that I know deep down are true, I just don't want to acknowledge them. Multiple voices of the same heart and mind.

I'm sorry, it might seem a little abstract, to people who don't have one.

Edited 2018-04-30 03:32 (UTC)

[Abstract is RIGHT, Blue really doesn't have the mind for this kind of thing. He's a biology and stats boy, not a psychologist.]

I kinda get what you mean, I think so it's like how when you're thinking about things to yourself sometimes a voice comes up and argues with your own logic?

[He has to word it a little carefully, but boy does he ever know the internal struggle. But then, his 'little voice' never tended to be ...helpful.]

lol so Akira's like that deep down, huh? I'm not surprised I guess

[And that only makes him want to meet Goemon more.]

Kind of like that. It's more distinct and demanding than any of my internal monologue before I awakened to this power. But it is not always arguing. Sometimes he helps me to see situations from another angle, or find the beauty in something I'd dismissed.

Our home is full of myths and legends, many of which this world has in common. They are enduring because they are universal. People believe or identify with some part of it, and keep it alive. Goemon is only one such story.

sounds like the Legendaries

[Well, apart from most of the parts about internal monologue and such, but... Weren't stories like those of Ho-Oh and the 3 beasts, of Reshiram and Zekrom's battle, of the Ultimate Weapon- the same sort of clinging belief which gave those Pokémon and the morals their stories taught their enduring effect on humanity?]

well this sort of thing is a little beyond me but I'd like to see what sort of being he is, I guess

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